"I want to be the one to wake you up one day" - A. (AKA Mr.Lover.)

 

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Me too.

 

Thinking of the future makes me...

Excited.

Nervous.

 

My sister keeps on teasing me about the future.

 

Of course we've some what touched that subject in conversations (in passing).

 

Saying things like "My future plans include you" and things like that.

 

But nothing's ever really certain.

 

And it scares the life out of me.

 

Believing make me feel strong.

 

I've been fighting with my insecurities, my fears...

Willing to somehow change.

 

Or at least try to.

 

And I'm holding on to what I feel for this guy.

 

I'm such a lucky girl.

 

Out of all the gazillion guys out there.

 

Out of all the many decisions that could've prevented us to ever meet.

 

Out of the many things that could have happened.

 

We're together.

 

I'm ranting.

 

See, I wanted to just post something like this.

 

Write that I feel great on an absolutely normal day.

 

EVEN WITHOUT MEETING HIM TODAY.

 

I've been talking to him through chat.

 

And I feel fine.

 

I feel happy.

 

We'll get to see each other again. Soon.

 

God.

 

Remember those times I was so angry at you for something?

To the point that I was seeing red and blade?

 

I thank you for making me such a coward and pushing me to read Bible and renew my strengths.

 

For giving me loving family.

 

For the wish that I unconsciously made. For him.

 

 

Man, this is so cheesy.

 

But it's what it is.

 

Not feeling love for him seems impossible.

 

IS IMPOSSIBLE.

 

TRUE FACT.

 

 

Currently listening to: You Were Meant For Me - Cover by Him =]
Currently reading: The Little Prince
Currently feeling: loved